The Pain of A Grieving Mother

The Pain of A Grieving Mother

This is a real life conversation between grieving mothers. It is never a length of time that a mother should stop grieving. You cannot put limitation on true or unconditioned love for your child you gave birth to. Some mothers look to the creator, God, universe, themselves or what ever your belief maybe when they go through the life change experience.  I always say going to your belief source may help depend on the way your child leave this earth.  I find it is harder to overcome the death of a child when their lives have been taken in the hand of another human being because their lives were stolen from them. There is no preparation when your child gets murder. The hardest part of the horrific murder of your child when you are a witness to the murder or you saw graphic  images or some give you graphic details how your child was murder and how their body organs was spread over the pavement, carpet, floor and in the wheel of a bus.

Dee Lacelle

Yesterday at 2:57am · Clark Mills, NY

My precious son, 7 years of Hell :'(

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Shannon Marie Seay Hugs

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Dee Lacelle Thank you!

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Gwenneth Ashley Williamson Hugs and prayers

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Dee Lacelle Thank you!

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Kathy Meshes Much love Dee, dates are so hard now

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Dee Lacelle They are! Thank you♡

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Damaris Ramirez Hugs to you mom, praying God's strength

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Dee Lacelle Thank you!

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Dee Lacelle Thank you all ♡

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Cindy Bell Reckers I'm so very sorry. Big HUGS

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Darlene Boggs SO SORRY

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Na Johnson I send you my hugs. I have been going through four and ten months of hell.

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Dee Lacelle So sorry, it really is :'(

Things Not To Say To A Bereaved Parent For Parents Who Have Lost A Child/Children At Any Age

Things Not To Say To A Bereaved Parent For Parents Who Have Lost A Child/Children At Any Age.

I had share this flyer conversation with the another support group I am with and I wanted to see how they feel about this topic. Feel free to share your feel in the comment box.

Hello My Grieving Parents

May you please share what are the things people say or said to you dealing with the loss of your child or children?

I find this flyer and it says almost everything what people have been saying to me. I love the interaction #cartoon conversation amongst people who gossip or saying things to one another about a grieving parent. Some people do not have any clue. This, not a life we chose. It has been going on four years my only child has been killed by Community Coach reckless bus driver operating NJ Transit bus 709 in Bloomfield, NJ when he flew by the bus stop and jumped the curb running over my son twice.

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Tim Shannon Grieving father here. The next time I hear someone say "things happen for a reason" I will have to refrain from slugging them.

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Na Johnson Hello my Grieving Father. I feel the same way. I want to slug them too. I had people told me the same thing. I tell them, Oh, yeah, what is the reason?

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Kathleen Kennedy VonBehren The one that bothers me is: you are so strong or you deserve a break....i am not strong..i have no choice...what else can i do. And i derserve a break ??????? Ahhhh. No break would help. I cant shut down my grief.

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Na Johnson I had people tell me that all the time you are so strong. I tell them I am not strong. I just learn how to put on a mask while I am around people but behind closed door I am a total wreck. I had someone told me at least you are alive or at least you are...See More

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Kathleen Kennedy VonBehren What does work is a story or memories that are shared.....that is the best!!! Or say his name...lots of times... Michael, Michael, Michael!!!! 💕

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Na Johnson How does that supposed to help you when you call your beloved Prince Michael name three times?

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Kathleen Kennedy VonBehren It gives me another memory that i didnt have before.

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Na Johnson I had someone told me God needed an angel, you need to find peace with your son's death (murder), I do not like the question, How are you doing? or the statement, He is in a perfect place, you need to move on with your life, go for a walk and more heart-wrenching things.

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Robyn Buiter I have a sister who can't understand that our whole family (husband and other children) are STILL grieving after 19 years. We should be over it by now.
Another one I HATE is at least you have other children, so I feel like asking the, which child would they choose of theirs to die.

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Na Johnson Robyn Buiter I feel the same way. My sister told me well Deshon, my son, is gone, now you can move to AZ with mommy and take care of her and she can take care of you. Then my sister told me you are just wasting your life away. She also told me she has no patient with me, she tired of walking on eggshells to watch what she has to say. I told her you in church counseling but you are mindful what you say to your church member and have patient with them. My sister also told my cousin to leave me alone and let her go through this by herself. What harsh thing to say to me.

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Here is another site for Bereaved Parents What Not To Say.
http://stillstandingmag.com/2014/01/6-things-never-say-bereaved-parent/

6 Things to Never Say to a Bereaved Parent:

1)  Time heals all wounds.  

Last I checked in my journey of trekking through the unimaginable, time hasn’t been working any overtime hours “healing” me.  And even if on some far away planet time does heal all wounds, it doesn’t make it helpful or comforting to hear when suffering in a ditch.  Alone.  Without much hope or a rope.

Time can help soften and change some of the sharpness of grief, but time alone doesn’t heal.  Time + focused intention can create a current in the direction of healing, but triple underline this:  Not all wounds heal, no matter how much time passes.  Not every wound turns into a scar.  Not all suffering ends in this lifetime.  Yes, in time it might scab over, but the slightest bump or scratch can make it start to bleed all over again.  Ask any bereaved parent– he or she will tell you– child loss is a wound that won’t ever completely heal.  No matter how much time or good intention, living a life without one (or more) of your children is a wound that forever bleeds.  No matter how many band-aids cover it over time.

Try instead:  What would feel healing/helpful to you right now? ~ Is there any way I can help carry your burden? ~ What do you need most today? ~ I am with you.  Always.

2)  Let go… Move on.  You’d feel better if you let go/move on… You’re hanging onto him too much, that’s why you’re so sad…  If you’d just let go you could start living again…

Anything that implies “get over it” will only add more unnecessary pain and hurt to a bereaved parents’ already gaping, oozing wounds.  What on earth is left for grieving parents to “let go of” when they’ve already lost the most precious treasure of their entire life to death?  We’ve already been forced to let go of someone who we would’ve given our own life to keep.  The only thing we have left to hold onto is our child’s memory and our abiding love for him or her.  And in doing so we courageously move forward, but never do we move on.  Moving on implies not taking our child with us throughout the rest of our lives.  When someone tells me I need to “move on/let go”, I tell them to move on from my life because I will proudly carry my son with me everywhere I go.  If people have a problem with it, I have no problem letting them go.

Try instead:  Hold on to me.  I’ll walk with you every step of the way. ~ No matter how painful, I’ll be with you every breath you take apart from your child. ~ Tell me about your beautiful child.  What was he like?  What do you miss the most?

3)  Have faith.  If you’d just have faith, this wouldn’t hurt so badly…  If you had a strong faith like I do, you wouldn’t still be grieving like this…  If you’d just trust God you wouldn’t be suffering so much…

Guess what?  Grief is not indicative of a lack of faith.  Ever.  So stop playing the faith card in an attempt to comfort someone who is suffering the worst human pain IMAGINABLE.  Having faith doesn’t make the fact that our child was robbed from us far before her time any easier or more bearable.  And it certainly doesn’t make it hurt any less, or make us feel more supported.  All it does is make it more probable that someone might feel like punching you in the face.  Furthermore, it shames a bereaved parent into thinking– Wow, if only I had more faith I wouldn’t hurt so much.  What am I doing wrong?— which I hope is the exact opposite message you’re intending to send.  Bereaved parents already feel isolated and alone in a world that predominately doesn’t understand child loss, and judging a grieving person’s level of faith by their depth of grief is not only ludicrous, it’s downright cruel.  Just don’t.

Try instead:  I love you. ~ What is it like to keep living without your child?

4).  Everything happens for a reason.  

No.  It doesn’t.  Sometimes the most horrible, cruel, unimaginably awful things happen to the best, most amazing, incredibly loving people on the planet.  And guess what?  Sometimes life just plain doesn’t make sense.  Sometimes things happen for no logical reason at all.  Saying “everything happens for a reason” is possibly the fastest way to make a grieving parents’ blood boil.  There is no reason good enough in all of heaven and earth that my son is buried underground while my feet continue to walk the earth.

I get that most people say this in an attempt to make sense of what is senseless, but instead let’s just state what is true:  It makes no *bleepin’* sense at all.  Children should never, ever die before their parents.  We all want the world to feel safe and predictable, and the word childloss is the quickest way to shake the foundation of those closest to us.  The thought of it is downright terrifying.  It pops even the most carefully crafted safety bubbles.

The truth is, witnessing the suffering of others might crack you open– possibly wide open.  Let it.  It’s supposed to.  It’s in the cracking that our hearts can offer empathy and true support instead of false platitudes, unwelcome advice or a severed relationship that offers no comfort to your hurting loved one.

Try instead:  I’m so sorry.  It’s just not fair. ~ There’s no good reason this happened.  You don’t deserve this pain.  I wish I could take it away from you. ~ It breaks my heart to see you suffering. ~ This is complete bullshit.  I’m so sorry.

5).  At Least.  

Any sentence starting with at least should never be spoken to a bereaved parent.  Never.  Ever.  “At least she didn’t suffer…  At least he died young… (??!!!) …  At least you can have more children…  At least you got as long as you did with her…  At least it was quick and painless… At least you were blessed to have him at all.”  There is no at least in childloss.  None.  If you want to support your loved one in the best way possible, keep “at least” out of your conversations with her.

Try instead:  I miss him too.  I wish he was here with us. ~ What’s your favorite memory of her? ~ What helps you feel closest to him when you miss him the most?

6).  Be thankful.  Be thankful you can have more children (newsflash:  not everyone can!) … Be thankful for your living children… Be thankful you had her at all.

Telling someone who has lost more than you can ever imagine to be thankful, is like slapping her in the face instead of hugging her.  Seriously.  Don’t do it.  You better believe any bereaved parent in the world could school you in the art of being thankful.  There’s no need to lecture us on the topic.  We’re thankful more than thankful has ever been thanked.  We’re grateful for each precious moment we were blessed to have our child, and this gratitude for every single blessed moment is what keeps our heart beating.  And if we do have other living children you better believe we’re thankful to the nth degree for the children we still have, but that doesn’t take away the lifelong pain of living without one (or more) of our precious children.

Try instead:  I’m thankful for you. ~ I’m thankful for your child. ~ I’m thankful for our friendship. ~ I’m thankful to witness your courage and bravery and strength.  

Last week I read a quote that sums up this one quite nicely:  “Before you tell a grieving parent to be grateful for the children they have, think about which one of yours you could live without.”

Enough said.

Photo credit:  Angela Miller